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It’s Been a long Time

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It’s been a long time since Ben and I were on a cross country drive. more specifically, it has been a year.

A year ago today Ben and I were in Yellowstone national Park. You can read the recap here.
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It’s also been a long time since I’ve binged – well, it was a long time previous to today. The stress and exhaustion of long days and long drives finally got to me and I cracked.

When I was very restrictive in college I would have similarly long days. I would go to class in the morning and then work and not get home until 9pm or so. I didn’t pack a lot of food because “I was on a diet”.

Then, I would rush home every night and tear apart the kitchen like a starving person. Well, I kinda was starving myself all day.

I would look at my kitchen at home as a place of comfort, safety and love. even though I don’t starve myself all day now, I still see my kitchen like that.

I look forward to getting to that place of comfort every day. It doesn’t matter if I’m running an errand, going to a party or working – I rush home to get to food.

This is one of the deepest scars of my disordered eating past. I cannot seem to just come home like a normal person, eat a snack or meal and then walk away. once I am in that place I can’t stop.

I need to take myself out of the situation all together. I’m not sure how I can do that, but I’m working on that.

Whew, I just spilled my guts. That was embarrassing, but honest.

My afternoon snacks were like treats. I was in a rush thing morning (big surprise, I know) so I dumped a bunch of random things in my bag. In my defense, the Vitatop only has 9g of sugar.

These Greek yogurts have significantly more sugar, but I am hoping the protein balances it out.

After work I took a short walk and stalled for an hour and a half before I could pick up Ben and trek home 40 miles. Not exaggerating, but not complaining either.

When I got home I made a quick taco salad with “the works” – lettuce, salsa, carrots, beans, potatoes, soy cheese, avocado, chips…

And then had watermelon as dessert in an effort to fend off a binge that failed. Boo.

I loved all your comments on my last post. ONE word to describe how you eat:

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– balanced (a lot of these)

– Unprocessed

– Evolving

– Flexible

– intentional

– Fuel

– Open-minded

– Ground

– Unconventional

– excessive ?

– Cheap

– Discretionary

– Situational

– Experimental

– Eclectic

– Boring

– Whole

– Clean

– protein (this one is from Ben)

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